Your shitty childhood isn't an excuse to be a shitty person. Your shitty luck with relationships isn't an excuse to be a shitty person. Your shitty experiences aren't an excuse to be a shitty person. We all have our shit to deal with, and you can either let it define you or grow from it. 

Do you ever get the feeling that you don't know what is happening? That you are running around and just leaving yourself behind. Because I do. I feel like my life isn't in my own hands anymore like somebody else is pulling the strings and I'm just following. And I resent it. I feel like everybody is expecting things from me that aren't theirs to expect.